Can anyone be happy and go lucky every single day?

Lately, I find myself wondering about the state of living and I find it hard to remain positive.  It’s like I’m on the edge of a plate, balancing and not wanting to fall off.

I’ve been made redundant in the past, but this time it is a lot scarier.  I daren’t even turn on the news because it is all gloom and doom as they talk about the economy and the recession.  I’m finding it very hard to even get an interview and within a month, my money is going to run out and I’ll be hit left, right and centre with bills and debt.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I’m not alone.  I absolutely refuse to be bogged down by it, but I admit that lately, I do feel degraded.

It’s quite funny really, because I’ve often thought that I should write a blog about how I feel, then I think that I shouldn’t because  I don’t want to depress you with my worries, but sometimes, you just have to get it off your chest.

It’s been about two months since I last did a day’s work and during this time, I’ve kept myself busy working on promoting my photography and creating customisable cards that are available within my Zazzle store.  Shameless promotion I know, but please please buy from me if you’re in need of a business card, greeting card of Halloween invitation card.

I’m making new friends all the time on Twitter and this is keeping me occupied rather than dwelling on the negative.  I’ve gotten to know some great people and I especially enjoy the Fewdio gang.  Their love of horror really does inspire mine.  I can’t wait to see what their next nightmare will be.  Do check them out at http://www.fewdio.com.

I’ve learned that I’m very dependent on having the Internet and I would hate to lose it.  The thought of getting disconnected scares me more than not having money to buy food.  Isn’t that crazy?

I’m 37yrs old and by the end of this year I will be a grandma.  I don’t like the word ‘grandma’ as it is so old fashioned.  I can’t think of a trendy name to replace ‘granny Mandy’.  Help?

I’ve got so many things really to look forward to, hence why I don’t want to give in to the hardship of living.  I’ve also got the support of my gorgeous partner Luke who is also out of work.

My photography is my passion and trying to promote it is a job in itself and right now I can work on it full time.  This is what is keeping me going and hopefully it will all be worthwhile?

Rant over! 

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